Every day in the daily grind. Hours turning into days turning into weeks. Holy shit time is flying. I can recall being in grade school and a year seemed like it took forever. As it stands right now, a year is nothing and is flying by fast as fuck. There’s two reasons for this as I see it. I believe that when you are younger your understanding of the world is that of someone who has only been alive for a few years, and everyone who is older makes the rules. Being on the earth for so little time you don’t have the scope to gauge how fast stuff goes. Another reason is that at least for myself as I’ve gone through school you have something to look forward to in order to keep your attention on moving forward. Now, without the goal of moving on to the next grade, or going to the next school, there’s just endless future of doing the same thing every day. I assume this is the reason many people go to college now. Even though college is mostly pointless now, many people will still go to delay any king of decision making regarding your future. At the same time, you may really fuck your future if you go into serious debt to go to college. Anyhoo, at some point you’re going to face a choice of either getting a job for someone, going to more school, or working for yourself. I favor the latter, but have yet to implement it. Most likely because I’m a huge pussy. A big reason people get jobs at a company is because it’s safe. They may not like it that much but it pays the bills. Where am I going with all this? Hell if I know. All I know is that this all leads to liquor.
No where in the world have I ever seen a more honest depiction of office work than the first issue of a comic book called Incognito. It’s about a guy with super powers in the witness protection program. He’s given drugs to take his powers away and given a shitty office job. Naturally, he turns to drugs to cope with the boredom. Sound familiar? There’s a lot of reasons I believe people drink, but I think much of it has to do with boredom. People being bored with their dumb life, so they turn to alcohol to erase all the dumb conditioning and they are in effect embracing chaos, even if only for a few hours.
People often look down on drunk slobs, and believe me, I can understand. What they usually aren’t getting is that there is a certain freedom in just getting shit faced and embracing the crazy. When you are doing this you’re really walking a fine line. If you don’t drink enough, you don’t get in that zone of uninhibited behavior, but if you drink too much you are apt to jump over tables and roundhouse people in the head and wind up on the floor. The trouble with this of course is that once you get in the zone, it’s hard to stop drinking at that point because the spirits start to take over and you just keep drinking. Timing is obviously of major importance, as is knowing your tolerances. Clearly if you are day drinking, you are embracing chaos, and are to be commended.
A way around this of course is to find something you like doing and try to make money off it. IF that doesn’t work at least do something that doesn’t take up that much time to make your money. Seriously, people are wasting a third of every day working some job they don’t like and just accept it. It’s not just a third of your day though because you have to wake up when you don’t want to and you can’t get fucked up the night before. Where’s the fun in that?
I always looked at the alcoholic old fuck at the end of the bar getting shit faced every day as a tragic figure. They are stuck in some position in life and they can’t get out. So in the mean time they may as well try to forget and get fucked up. They have accepted that they have lost and are just embracing getting as fucked up as possible. There’s a certain purity in that though, a certain honesty, and I respect that. Here’s to embracing chaos and evolving!